Friday, June 12, 2009

Temperance, Sobriety and Acceptance

I was a hedonist.....I lived without a plan..lived in the moment,for the here and now, not thinking about tomorrow or the consequences of my actions. That road was passionate, blinding, winding, thorny, dusty, and so very narrow but broad at the same time. Paradox huh? Well that's human nature for you..never completely sure of the road to take but always willing to try again and set out on my ways after being burnt. Needless to say I got tired of living the hedonistic life..eating life with a big spoon isn't my style anymore but every little mouthful counts. Just because I say open up to love doesn't mean you have to close your mind. That's stupid and dangerous..you will get hurt. My mind is always as open as my heart if not more...that's how I guard the well spring of my life. One has to learn how to deal with failure. If the road ahead looks too daunting and you fear you will not make it..let go turn around and find another way. Fall down, stay down and reflect BUT failure isn't the end of everything...it may seem that way but its not. GET UP AND MOVE ON. The little imp played hopscotch yesterday night...................





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R.O.L.L.E.R.C.O.A.S.T.E.R pt 2

How can you kill or die for someone if you don't open your heart up completely to love? My heart valves do not function that way...they can't open partially..its all or nothing. Love is an inspiration, a passion, no one can ever figure it out completely..stop trying my friends, you'll only be frustrated(experience) crazy I know but shit happens..on more than one occassion. Be prepared..life is unfair but that shouldn't stop you from living it n giving it like you mean it....even if its unrequited or not what you expect be grateful..you're lucky to have experienced it in this life..some never do. Life is unexpected...live it as it comes...plans are good but they are not the be all and end all..living without a plan is not a plan either....even if you were to figure out love completely..you'd never be able to enjoy it all figured out.
R.O.L.L.E.R.C.O.A.S.T.E.R
Where shall I begin? Madness, demons, and oh yeah, there's an imp on my chest..If you triumph over fear does that mean you're completely fearless,and are now full of courage? I think the past fear gets replaced with another and the cycle continues till at last you face your greatest fears and have the choice of conquering it or backing down..From a fight I will always walk away, if its necessary. I will always be a lover and not a fighter...the world needs more love. I will open up my heart and take the risk again and again because that's just me..that's the road I'm on right now. Roads will change with time and gradually..s'times I'll be off the track for a while bt I am still on my journeys..they will never end..where I find obstacles I will work with them if not I'll turn back n find another way..that has to be the best I can do for now..if no one accepts that then it's all good..hard to understand bt IT'S ALL GOOD..herein lies the damn paradox.."Guard ur heart 4 its th well spring of your life" but "Love one another as Christ loved the church" meaning be ready to die for the object of your affection. How can you be ready to kill or die for love?
How can you kill or die for someone if you don't open your heart up completely to love? My heart valves do not function that way...they can't open partially..its all or nothing. Love is an inspiration, a passion, no one can ever figure it out completely..stop trying my friends, you'll only be frustrated(experience) crazy I know but shit happens..on more than one occassion. Be prepared..life is unfair but that shouldn't stop you from living it n giving it like you mean it....even if its unrequited or not what you expect be grateful..you're lucky to have experienced it in this life..some never do. Life is unexpected...live it as it comes...plans are good but they are not the be all and end all..living without a plan is not a plan either....even if you were to figure out love completely..you'd never be able to enjoy it all figured out.